pretty_nn_pink

01:21 pm:  Hi everyone--

I havent been on in a while because after an ulcer and painful rotting teeth i realized I had to stop the purging.... I'm not out of the woods yet, but its definitely not at 3xs a day.

Since Ive stopped purging--I still restrict hardcore and then end up binging...I lost 5+ lbs with no change in my lifestyle.  I know its impossible to break the cycle cuz you NEED to purge but trust me purging isnt helping u lose weight..i learned it myself.

even though im still a crazy ED obsessed beotch, my life is a little easier cuz i stopped purging.  I wish i could help everyone the way i did myself...

have a good day loves!

so far im at 150 cals but theres is tons of christmas candy starin at me right now :(

11:22 pm:

Im posting this so you can tell me how fat and ugly and awful I am.  Really....please do.  I need the criticism to snap me out of this.

Today I ate.

-halloween candy
-5 gingersnap cookies
-salad
a potato
-beef roast
-lettuce
-a piece of french bread
-ben and jerrys ice cream
-a halloween marshmallow pumpkin
-2 tacos

My stomach hurts so bad and I am SO ANGrY at myself. I dont even deserve to be on this website.  SOMEONE YELL AT ME.

 

11:35 pm:

Since I have been on here, which has been about two weeks now..I have lost a whopping 2 LBS.  2 freaking lbs.  I have been starving myself and putting myself through hell only to see 2 digits chiseled off teh scale! Its not fair!

So. I'm posting on here so ppl can follow my progress so i HAVE to do better.

HW 160 ( P.S. Im 6 feet tall)

LW 135

CW 153 :(

GW:1  by Friday October 12----150  Whenever I'm under 150, I'm allowing myself to buy a new camera which i've been saving for...breaking the 150 mark will be huge for me.
GW 2  by Oct 21 ----145
GW 3  by Halloween----140
this is just a start.........

This is TOTALLY realistic. I KNOW i can do it. ..and I will be so happy when i do!